When I am With You, I am Home!

Attachment-1My prayer . . .

 When I am with You, I am home! 

My worship to You is my heart and every cell and part of my being reaching out to You to let You know that I love You.  I adore You, Jesus!  

Everything about You is what I want to be like.  Everything about You is holy and awesome and worthy and loving and true and just and merciful.  I don’t have enough words to express how incredible You are!

I often express my worship to You in my thoughts and heart by inwardly adoring You, and I know You understand the words I cannot express.  You are great in understanding. (** See Psalm 147:5)) 

When I worship You in Your presence, I am HOME!  It is the only time and moments on this earth when my spirit flies free and my heart sings, “Father God, I love being with You all the time!”  You are my home.  You are my life.  You are what I breathe for.  You are everything I long for.  

Jesus, worship is my life’s response to Your awesomeness.  Everyday, there are moments when my worship is flawed by sin; You know my heart.  When I sin and turn to You and ask Your forgiveness, You forgive me always.  No human is as faithful as You are.

Often I am oh so quiet before You; other times, I sing and loudly declare that You are King .  You are so worthy to be loudly declared as King.  The earth should have sounds of loud praise constantly reaching into the heavens to You instead of the cursing and complaining that comes from people’s mouths – the very people You created.  The people who would have no life without You.

Other times in the day, I worship You with my work or doing the things that need done in a day.  Then, there are those awesome times when the beautiful little birds are singing.  I then say, “Father, thank you so very much for the gift of the birds singing.  You are so incredible that You bless me with such beautiful sounds.” 

It amazes me that I am Your daughter.  You chose me even though I am so unworthy and have nothing to offer You but my love, heart and a human life that has been marred by sin – I am a flawed person who messes up and sins.  Thank You so much that You made a way for me to personally be able to worship You and be in Your Holy presence.

There is no one who loves me like You do.  There is no one who forgives me like You do.  There is no one who deserves my worship but You.  You are so good!  You are royalty yet You are also my Dad who looks after me.  You are my protector and provider.

 I know You smile when I worship You.  I have felt Your smile in my heart and know You are moved when I bow my heart before You.   It astonishes me that when I worship You I can move the heart of the God of the universe.

My worship to You is not just for what You do for me or the things You give me.  My love and worship is because of who You are – I love You, Jesus!  I want to always love You the person … the God who just wanted us to choose to walk and talk with You in the garden.

I don’t want our relationship to ever change.  Let me be like David when He danced before You … free!  Free to express my love with everything I am and to worship You with reckless abandon.  May I worship You with excellence (give you the best I have to give).  I give You my heart God – my everything.

I always want to be a little girl in my heart with You.  You are my life and home.  My heart fits with You.  You are the only place I 100% fit. 

When I breathe my last breath, I have this hope You have given me.  I will slip into Your Heavenly home to be with You forever.  There, face to face, I can hold up my heart to You, and I will be home forever.

I often picture in my mind holding up my heart to You while living here on earth.  Sometimes I have held in in my hands and held it out to You and cried loudly saying, “God, my heart is oh so broken, please fix it.”  I have been like a little kid with a broken toy asking their Dad to fix it.  Other times I have held out my heart and said, “Here is my heart; let Your will be done in my life – I surrender to Your ways.” 

I’m going to close this letter now God.  We could talk a long long time.  I love You and forever will always long to be close to You … forever I will be with You.  I choose to walk with You and talk with You … I worship you!  When I worship You, I am home.”

*** Do you spend time with Jesus each day just to be with Him?  Do you spend time with Him because You love Him?  Do you truly worship Him with all your heart, mind, soul and strength? 

~ Esther

“I Stand Alone”


jeremiahThe prophets of the Old Testament were “different”.  They were not what we would consider as being normal everyday people. 

They were what most would consider strange and quirky; but, they were called by God to speak to the people only the words God gave them to speak.  God trusted them to be His voice.

Many Christians have not read their Bibles from cover to cover; therefore, they misunderstand prophets.

Many Christians also misunderstand God’s character (who He is).  In some instances, they choose to turn a blind eye to parts of who He is and only pick out the parts they like about Him.  They then build their beliefs and lives around the parts they like. 

One of the foundation stones of God’s character is that He is love – most Christians would agree with this and love this part of God’s character.  Who doesn’t love a person who loves!

Another foundation stone of God’s character is that He is just.  This part of His character is misunderstood or overlooked by many Christians.  Many turn a blind eye and say He can’t possibly be a God who would demand justice in 2015 – He is a God of love and peace only.

In the Old Testament, over and over and over again, God’s people did not obey God and wandered into deep and ugly sins.  Instead of worshipping God, they worshipped idols.  In some instances, they even sacrificed their children to  idols. 

God loved His people so much (because He is love); however, God also being a God of justice had to protect innocent people.  He had to protect the children that were being sacrificed on altars.  He had to protect all the people being hurt by the multitude of sins being committed.  Sin hurts people. 

Therefore, God called prophets like Jeremiah to go before the people to let them know that they would be judged for their sins.  God proclaimed judgement on them after having warned them over and over and over again.  He gave them every opportunity to turn from their sins and evil practices.  When they refused, God had to protect the innocent or He would not be a God of love.  Protecting the innocent is love.

God is still the same God today.  If God is not just, innocent people suffer.  We humans understand the concept that justice is needed for us to live on planet earth.  If there was no justice, evil would be so rampant.  Murder and every abominable sin would take over planet earth.  We would be hiding in the forests and caves to try and protect ourselves from the unpunished evil – no justice would mean a world of total evil chaos. 

Many Christians want to manipulate and be the person responsible to say when a judgement should or should not be given.  Justice has to fit into their little box of what they consider right and wrong, and under no circumstance do they want God to be the one to decide what is right and wrong and when justice must be served.  

Many Christians do not want God to define what sin is – they want to define sin by themselves.  For them, there is no foundation to define what sin is.  The Bible is not their source of definition.  They only want peace and love and  justice is only an option when it fits their definition of when it is allowed or needed – which usually means only if it affects themselves or their family. 

They only want to see the part of God’s character that is love, and they definitely do not want to  make a stand or be a watchman on the wall to speak up for innocent people who are wronged.  They don’t want to have to pay the price involved to speak up and protect the innocent. 

They choose to believe that prophets (watchmen on the wall) were only meant to live in the Old Testament, and that we have no responsibility in 2015 to be a voice for the innocent.  They go so far as to say that anyone who does speak up for the innocent may not even be a Christian, because God is only love and peace.

Being a “love & peace” only Christian allows evil and sin to run rampant through our country, our cities, our homes, our families, our churches – all of our lives.  The innocent suffer in front of our eyes; but, we choose to turn a blind eye as it is not our problem to take a stand for justice. 

Sin runs rampant in our churches – we remain silent.  Evil beliefs take over our society – we remain silent.  We have become a fertile field for another Adolf Hitler to walk in and spew his evil to the point where innocent non-perfect children are killed, Jews are killed (or anyone who is defined as being evil), Christians are killed while other belief systems are given a salute, Christians are ordered not to pray or allowed to believe the Bible, and other atrocities I will not even get into. 

How long before the Christian belief system of “love & peace” only and not standing up for the innocent will breed the fruit of a society and country that is overrun by evil?  Who will be responsible?

Amazingly, many North American Christians not only believe they do not have to make a stand for what is right; but, they also believe that no other Christian should stand up for what is right. 

Some “love & peace” only Christians when they see another Christian STAND UP and loudly proclaim truth, will suddenly arise and strike out at their own – they will try and kill the Christian who stands for justice and truth.  They will try and kill them with friendly fire.  They wound and maim and slander and kill their own – death by friendly fire is an absolute possibility for a Christian who chooses to stand for what is right.

I say, “This should never be!”

I ask — Where are the Christian voices that will stand up for truth, love and justice combined?  Where are the people who will say, ” I am God’s, and I will take the responsibility He requires of me and STAND for what is right”? Where are you? 

Jeremiah suffered by being alone because he was a prophet – a voice.

“. . .  Because of Your hand upon me I sat alone … “ (Jeremiah 15:17)

Will you pick up your cross and follow Jesus and be a voice?  Will you walk in the footsteps of the many martyrs and tortured Christians who lived before you and to this day live in other countries such as China?  Or will you choose to be a “Christian” who defines who God is – peace and love only – and in turn choose to turn a blind eye to atrocities committed on planet earth?

Who are you?  What will be said about you when you stand before the judgement seat?

Will you be like Cain and say, “Am I my brother’s keeper?”


Will you be one who will say, “I stand alone!  I will stand and be a voice”.  To this person God in turn will say, “WELL DONE My good and faithful servant!”

~ Esther ~

Idols, False Prophets and Evil Rulers

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“… I have been hurt by their adulterous hearts which turned away from Me, and by their eyes which played the harlot after their idols …” (Ezekiel 6:9)

When God spoke this to Ezekiel, all kinds of idols had been set up in the temple in Jerusalem.  At the north gate of the inner court, an idol of jealousy was at the entrance. 

God showed Ezekiel many of the idols that were being worshipped in Jerusalem.  The elders of the house of Israel were worshipping carved images.  At the entrance of the gate of the Lord’s house which was towards the north, women were sitting weeping for Tammuz.  Even in the inner court, abominations were being committed.  God was hurt; God’s people were being hurt and misled.

God said that a mark was to be put on the foreheads of all the men in the city who sighed and groaned over all the abominations that were being committed. These were men after God’s heart.  They had hearts that longed for God to be worshipped in purity – with no other idols receiving the glory that was to be God’s alone.  These men were marked and set aside to be saved by God.  The others were to be destroyed. 

God commanded that the evil rulers be judged.  The very character of God is a good Shepherd.  He is everything that is good and is love.  He could not allow His little lambs (His children) to continue to be deceived, hurt, and ruined by evil leaders who did not follow after God’s ways.  God was going to clean His house and had the responsibility to clean His house.

“Thus you will know that I am the Lord; for you have not walked in My statutes nor have you executed My ordinances, but have acted according to the ordinances of the nations around you.” (Ezekiel 11:12)

The evil rulers had allowed the culture around them to change their way of life and to influence what was right and wrong.  God’s Word no longer dictated what was right and wrong.  The leaders began chasing after idols and ways of life that were not God’s.  Priorities, riches, pride, power, prestige and a host of other idols were set up in their hearts in the very place where God’s laws were to be written and where God was to be worshipped and served.  

False prophets arose who spoke on God’s behalf saying things God never said.

“It is definitely because they have misled My people by saying, ‘Peace!’ where there is no peace.  And when anyone builds a wall, behold, they plaster it over with whitewash;(Ezekiel 13:10)

God was angry!  He was hurt!  He loved His people and only wanted what was absolutely the best for them.  Who were these leaders and prophets that would lie to His children?  God said He would send His wrath on those who cried peace when God did not say it.  

God also condemned idolatrous elders.  Elders had set up their own idols in their hearts.

Ezekiel was told by God to say to the house of Israel,

” . . . Thus says the Lord God, “Repent and turn away from all your idols and turn your faces away from all your abominations.” (Ezekiel 14:6)

The stubborn and obstinate children of God were punished by a God who loved them.  He loves His people so much He could not allow leaders who had set up idols to continue to lead His people.  He could not allow false prophets to speak peace to His people when that was not what God was saying.  God’s true prophets only spoke the words He said.

Evil and stubborn leaders who turned aside from God’s way to listen to the ways of the nations around them and to follow after the nation’s idols hurt God because they hurt His people.  They deceived God’s people.  A God of love had and has to defend and protect His people.

Life has not changed since the days of Ezekiel.  Leaders arise that are evil and stubborn and who turn away from the truth of the Bible.  They deceive people.  They turn their eyes from God’s ways and seek a way that is easier and full of peace and riches.  They seek prosperity and wealth and power all the while doing it in the name of God when God never said what they are saying.

God is still the God of the Bible.  He does not change.  Sin is still sin.  God is still love.  God still forgives if we repent and turn from our evil ways.  He is still a God who has not abolished the Law or the Prophets but fulfilled them.  He is still a God who says that we are to have no other gods before Him or idols in our lives.  He is still a God who says pick up your cross and follow Me.  He is still the God who says we must forsake all and follow Him. 

In Ezekiel 11, God promised restoration . . .

“When they come there, they will remove all its detestable things and all its abominations from it.  And I will give them one heart, and put a new spirit within them.  And I will take the heart of stone out of their flesh and give them a heart of flesh, that they may walk in My statutes and keep My ordinances and do them.  Then they will be My people and I shall be their God.” (Ezekiel 11:18-20)

God hurts when He looks on North America and earth.  He hurts when He sees His lambs being deceived and trampled on.  He is hurt when leaders teach we are all to be rich.  That is not what God said.  God said the poor will always be with us.  He is hurt when people have weights put on them that are not from God.

God is also hurt when we personally worship idols.  Is God your first love?  Is there anything else that takes priority over God?  If God is not first, you have idols in your life.

If God asks you to do something, what would make you not do it?  That is an idol. 

What are your priorities?  Is your first priority to love the Lord your God with all your heart and then to love your neighbour as yourself?  If this is not your first priority each day to spend time with God and to know Him and to love Him, what takes His place?  That is an idol.

May we all sigh and groan over the abominations that are committed around us in the name of God by His stubborn and obstinate children.  May we all stand up for truth.  May we all stand up and knock down the idols first of all in our own lives and then in the corporate church community around us. 

Stand for truth!  Be one of those worthy to be marked by God on your forehead as one who loves God and His commands. 

At all costs, stand for the truth of God’s Word and not what men say God says. Read your Bible!

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied”. (Matthew 5:6)

“Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 5:10)

~ Esther ~