I Want You Back!

i-want-you-back-godEveryone has had situations in their life that have deeply wounded and hurt them. 

I am not talking about situations where someone hurt your feelings, and in two or three days you are over it.

The situations I am talking about are those moments in time when trauma happens in your life that causes you such emotional pain you don’t know how to breath. Sharp stabs of pain pierce your heart, and you don’t know how you will be able to survive the next moment let alone the next hour, day or years of life you have left on planet earth.  Your life will never be the same.  It seems like every cell in your body screams out, “No!”

The cause of those gut wrenching moments are different in everyone’s lives.  For some, it is the passing of a loved one.  For others it may be divorce, separation or abandonment.   Other times, it may be a sudden illness or accident that leaves a person’s life changed for ever.

In my life, I have lived time after time after time with the pain stabbing me because of rejection. 

Rejection happens when you love someone, and you want them in your life forever.  You care about them, you love them, and you want to forever be with that person to love them and care for them and live life with them. 

However, for some reason that person chooses to reject and spurn your love and walk away.  They are not interested in being with you.  They may even tell you how much they dislike you or hate you; they walk away and you are left with a heart that is stabbed with pain.

Usually a sermon, devotional or story on this topic would share advice on how to survive through the pain.  It is true that I can tell you the answer is going to God – He does carry us through every pain. 

However, what I want us to do is instead of looking at our own pain; I want us to think about how deep that pain is when it happens to another person.  I want us to focus on one person – the person who has been the most rejected in history.  There is one person who stands out as the most rejected ever!  That person is God.

God has lived every moment of every day since He created His children with millions and millions and millions of His children rejecting Him.  God’s heart has screamed in pain as continually His children reject Him.

In the book of Hosea, God was rejected by His children; the children of Israel.  God chose a prophet, Hosea, to re-enact the story of what the children of Israel were doing.  He wanted them to see in front of their own eyes the story of how He loved them and how they turned and walked away from Him.

Israel had forsaken God and played the harlot with other gods.  Israel murdered, stole, worshipped other gods — in fact, the Bible says the more Israel multiplied the more they sinned.

God had to punish Israel; He is holy and righteous.  A good dad must correct his children.  A good dad cannot allow his children to keep running out into the street in front of cars, because he sees that they will get hurt or killed.  He loves them too much to leave them to do whatever they want.

When people reject us, we don’t want to feel the pain so we often then choose to in turn reject the person who walked away from us.  We say, “They don’t want me so I will just put up a wall and not think about them again.  I will forget them and get on with my life.”  That is not what God wants.

Jesus asked us to live differently.  He said in the Kingdom of God life is different.  We are to turn the other cheek when someone hits us.  We are to love those who hate us. 

God is and always will be the same.  The Bible says He never changes.  His character is pure true love.  God in the Old Testament, in the book of Hosea, did punish His children; however, the story does not end there.  God then began to share His heart for His children.

First of all, He remembered.  He remembered the good times with His children.  He remembered how He loved them, cared for them, delivered them from Egypt, and led them.  God had blessed His children. 

“And she did not know that it was I who gave her the grain, the wine and the oil, and who lavished on her silver and gold, which they used for Baal.” (Hosea 2:8)

Then after remembering, in Chapter 11 of Hosea, it says that God yearned over His people.  The rejected heart of the Father had those piercing pains that would never leave as long as His children rejected Him.  Here is what God said . . .

“How can I give you up . . . How can I surrender you . . . My heart is turned over within Me and all My compassions are kindled.” (Hosea 11:8)

Doesn’t that sound like us when we love someone and they totally reject us or leave us?  If you have a child that has rejected you or anyone you deeply love reject you, the pain hits you and you cry out, “How can I give you up?  How can I surrender you?  How can I live day after day without you?  Please come home!”

God felt that pain for Israel when they rejected Him. Deep gut wrenching cries from a heart of love.  

But then, God made this loving call to Israel.  He told them if they would only return to Him … 

“Therefore, behold, I will allure her, bring her into the wilderness and speak kindly to her . . . and she will sing there as in the days of her youth, as in the day when she came up from the land of Egypt. 

‘It will come about in that day,’ declares the LORD , ‘That you will call Me Ishi (my husband) and will no longer call Me Baali (my master). ”  (Hosea 2:14-16)

God wanted and yearned for restored relationship!

“I will betroth you to Me forever; Yes, I will betroth you to Me in righteousness and in justice, in lovingkindness and in compassion, and I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the LORD .”  (Hosea 2:19-20)

God promised Israel if she would return He would bless her. 

Just like the prodigal in the New Testament when he returned home to his Father, God doesn’t accuse us or punish us if we return, repent and turn to Him.  God opens His arms and runs to us as the Prodigal’s father did when he saw him afar off.  The father then threw a party to celebrate because his son was home – that is what God wants to do!  The Bible says even the angels rejoice when a child comes home.  

Have you rejected God?  Are you in one of the following three categories?

YOU HAVE NEVER HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.  Has God called you to Him or is He calling you now as you read this;  but, you so far in life have rejected Him and walked away.  You have said, “No, I want nothing to do with God.”  Yet, everyday you worship other gods.  A god is what is our source of life – what is it that you rely on for fulfillment – that is a god.   Does your god really give you peace and fulfillment?  Can you trust him to give you eternal life when you die? 

YOU ARE A PRODIGAL – YOU ONCE HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD BUT WALKED AWAY.  Did you at one time follow God, like Israel; but your love grew warm and then cold?  Did you walk away like the prodigal?   Did you reject God and no longer have a relationship with Him and traded His love and care for gods that you think bring you more fulfillment?   

YOU HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD; BUT IT IS LUKE WARM – HE IS NOT REALLY GOD OF ALL YOUR LIFE.  Are you in a lukewarm relationship with God?  Do you perhaps go to church now and then or maybe every week; however, when He calls you to prayer and to spend time with Him you are too busy?  Has He asked you to do things; but, you have not surrendered and said yes to follow Him?   Do you spend your days in pursuit of wealth, accomplishment, status, success, or whatever else it is that is most important for you to obtain during this life? Where does God fit?  Does God look at you and hurt – does pain rack His being because of His deep love for you but you have rejected Him?

3317397_sOne of the things I have asked God is that when I go to Heaven I want to sit on God’s lap and hear His heartbeat.

Recently, God showed me that He wanted to share some of His heartbeat with me now.  Amazingly, it was not all cuddles and hugs which is what I was wanting and expecting.  Instead, He allowed me to be intimate with Him, and He shared the part of His heart with me that feels such pain and rejection and cries for His children to come home.  The very pain we feel when we are rejected – He feels every moment. 

God allowed me to feel on a very low level through my life what He feels like.  The Bible says that God is love.  He is perfect love.  God showed me that a human being could not handle the pain He feels. 

Perfect love plus rejection is pain beyond what a human can imagine.  God told me all the rejection I have felt (all the stabbing pain) is just a small peak into what it is like to feeling His heart beat for His children that have walked away and rejected Him. 

He also asked me to call His children home to Him.  “Be a voice, Esther.  Please call my children home to Me.”

Perfect God Love + Rejection =

PAIN beyond what any human could imagine

Please hear your Heavenly Father’s cry, “Come home! I want my children home.  I love you – please come back to me!  How can I give you up?  I love you!  I want to lavish my love on you!  Turn around, repent and come back to me.”

My prayer for you …

“I pray that the Holy Spirit will continue to speak to you and call you to the Father long after you have finished reading this blog.  I pray that this very day you will turn and return to God.

I pray that the angels will rejoice in Heaven as children come home.  They rejoice as they know relationship restored is the Father’s heart.  They know that every child of God that returns to God and puts Him first in their life lessens the pain in God’s heart.

Oh how You love us God!  Oh what a heart You have … a heart full of pain because You have true perfect love for Your children and You yearn for them to come home and be in restored relationship with You.”

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“Trust in the Lord”

Forest.jpg“Trust in the Lord” is a phrase that appears frequently in the Bible.   

The words, “trust in the Lord”, give a first impression that this is an easy task to accomplish.  However, the act of trusting in the Lord is a decision (a choice) that is tested, tried, and bombarded by satanic arrows into our thinking that try and derail us from trusting.

Throughout the Bible, God asked His people to do giant exploits and go on extreme adventures that no one had ever gone on before. 

Would you take years of your life to build an ark because God told you the earth would be entirely flooded?  Would you give up your career to build an ark that would take years to complete without proof that it would even float?

“By faith Noah, being warned by God about things not yet seen, in reverence prepared an ark for the salvation of his household…”  (Hebrews 11:7 NASB)

Would you leave behind everything to go to a land without knowing where it is, how you will get there, or why you even need to go there except that God asks you to go to a “Promised Land”? 

Why would you trust God to such an extreme that you would surrender your whole life (your belongings, friends, family, career, city, dreams, comfort, entertainment — everything) to obey what God asks of you?  

To trust God to the magnitude of where a person is willing to surrender “ALL” (including their will) to obey what He asks, requires knowing God intimately.  You cannot trust God to this extent unless you love Him more than any person, influence, personal feeling, potential pain, inconvenience, potential shame  or absolutely anything.  To trust God with”ALL” means God is the God of your life.  He is your first love.

“Now faith, is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.  For by it the men of old gained approval.” (Hebrews 11:1,2 NASB)

It is impossible to please God without faith – without total trust.  To love God requires total obedience. 

“And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.” (Hebrews 11:6 NASB)

If you are reading this and know in your heart that you do not trust God with all of your life, start seeking God.  Spend time with Him every day.

Ask Him to create in you a desire to love Him more than anything.  Ask Him to help you to trust Him with all of your life.   

Ask Him to create in you a clean heart that trusts Him with “ALL” so that from now until your life ends or Jesus returns, you will trust and obey Him no matter the cost. 

“Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness.

Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He will do it.

He will bring forth your righteousness as the light and your judgment as the noonday.”  (Psalm 37:3-6 NASB)

~ Esther ~

Idols, False Prophets and Evil Rulers

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“… I have been hurt by their adulterous hearts which turned away from Me, and by their eyes which played the harlot after their idols …” (Ezekiel 6:9)

When God spoke this to Ezekiel, all kinds of idols had been set up in the temple in Jerusalem.  At the north gate of the inner court, an idol of jealousy was at the entrance. 

God showed Ezekiel many of the idols that were being worshipped in Jerusalem.  The elders of the house of Israel were worshipping carved images.  At the entrance of the gate of the Lord’s house which was towards the north, women were sitting weeping for Tammuz.  Even in the inner court, abominations were being committed.  God was hurt; God’s people were being hurt and misled.

God said that a mark was to be put on the foreheads of all the men in the city who sighed and groaned over all the abominations that were being committed. These were men after God’s heart.  They had hearts that longed for God to be worshipped in purity – with no other idols receiving the glory that was to be God’s alone.  These men were marked and set aside to be saved by God.  The others were to be destroyed. 

God commanded that the evil rulers be judged.  The very character of God is a good Shepherd.  He is everything that is good and is love.  He could not allow His little lambs (His children) to continue to be deceived, hurt, and ruined by evil leaders who did not follow after God’s ways.  God was going to clean His house and had the responsibility to clean His house.

“Thus you will know that I am the Lord; for you have not walked in My statutes nor have you executed My ordinances, but have acted according to the ordinances of the nations around you.” (Ezekiel 11:12)

The evil rulers had allowed the culture around them to change their way of life and to influence what was right and wrong.  God’s Word no longer dictated what was right and wrong.  The leaders began chasing after idols and ways of life that were not God’s.  Priorities, riches, pride, power, prestige and a host of other idols were set up in their hearts in the very place where God’s laws were to be written and where God was to be worshipped and served.  

False prophets arose who spoke on God’s behalf saying things God never said.

“It is definitely because they have misled My people by saying, ‘Peace!’ where there is no peace.  And when anyone builds a wall, behold, they plaster it over with whitewash;(Ezekiel 13:10)

God was angry!  He was hurt!  He loved His people and only wanted what was absolutely the best for them.  Who were these leaders and prophets that would lie to His children?  God said He would send His wrath on those who cried peace when God did not say it.  

God also condemned idolatrous elders.  Elders had set up their own idols in their hearts.

Ezekiel was told by God to say to the house of Israel,

” . . . Thus says the Lord God, “Repent and turn away from all your idols and turn your faces away from all your abominations.” (Ezekiel 14:6)

The stubborn and obstinate children of God were punished by a God who loved them.  He loves His people so much He could not allow leaders who had set up idols to continue to lead His people.  He could not allow false prophets to speak peace to His people when that was not what God was saying.  God’s true prophets only spoke the words He said.

Evil and stubborn leaders who turned aside from God’s way to listen to the ways of the nations around them and to follow after the nation’s idols hurt God because they hurt His people.  They deceived God’s people.  A God of love had and has to defend and protect His people.

Life has not changed since the days of Ezekiel.  Leaders arise that are evil and stubborn and who turn away from the truth of the Bible.  They deceive people.  They turn their eyes from God’s ways and seek a way that is easier and full of peace and riches.  They seek prosperity and wealth and power all the while doing it in the name of God when God never said what they are saying.

God is still the God of the Bible.  He does not change.  Sin is still sin.  God is still love.  God still forgives if we repent and turn from our evil ways.  He is still a God who has not abolished the Law or the Prophets but fulfilled them.  He is still a God who says that we are to have no other gods before Him or idols in our lives.  He is still a God who says pick up your cross and follow Me.  He is still the God who says we must forsake all and follow Him. 

In Ezekiel 11, God promised restoration . . .

“When they come there, they will remove all its detestable things and all its abominations from it.  And I will give them one heart, and put a new spirit within them.  And I will take the heart of stone out of their flesh and give them a heart of flesh, that they may walk in My statutes and keep My ordinances and do them.  Then they will be My people and I shall be their God.” (Ezekiel 11:18-20)

God hurts when He looks on North America and earth.  He hurts when He sees His lambs being deceived and trampled on.  He is hurt when leaders teach we are all to be rich.  That is not what God said.  God said the poor will always be with us.  He is hurt when people have weights put on them that are not from God.

God is also hurt when we personally worship idols.  Is God your first love?  Is there anything else that takes priority over God?  If God is not first, you have idols in your life.

If God asks you to do something, what would make you not do it?  That is an idol. 

What are your priorities?  Is your first priority to love the Lord your God with all your heart and then to love your neighbour as yourself?  If this is not your first priority each day to spend time with God and to know Him and to love Him, what takes His place?  That is an idol.

May we all sigh and groan over the abominations that are committed around us in the name of God by His stubborn and obstinate children.  May we all stand up for truth.  May we all stand up and knock down the idols first of all in our own lives and then in the corporate church community around us. 

Stand for truth!  Be one of those worthy to be marked by God on your forehead as one who loves God and His commands. 

At all costs, stand for the truth of God’s Word and not what men say God says. Read your Bible!

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied”. (Matthew 5:6)

“Blessed are those who have been persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 5:10)

~ Esther ~