Tired? Weary? Discouraged?

my-projectAre you tired, weary, and discouraged?

Has God given you a vision – a work to do; but, when you think about following His leading, the vision is so large and overwhelming you just don’t have the faith or strength to believe God can accomplish through you what He has asked you to do.  Maybe you don’t even have the strength to begin the journey.

Perhaps you have started on the journey; but, obstacles and attacks of the enemy have been so great that they have distracted you. You have fallen down, and you are too weary to get up and keep going.  You are exhausted and tired.

Whatever circumstance you find yourself in; if you are tired and weary, God has you reading this for a reason.

  • God loves you and wants to give you rest
  • God cares about you and not just about what you do
  • God is here for you right now

I wrote a song a few years ago.  The words are:

When you can’t go on and the walls close in

When cruel voices whisper in your ear

When the light is darkened by clouds of evil

I am here!

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I am here, I will not let you go

I am here, a shelter from the storm

I am here, I will not let you go

I am here!

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I will break down walls

I’ll shatter darkness

I’ll surround you with my loving kindness

I will fight for you! I will fight for you!

That is what is happening right now.  God is fighting for you!  He is going to fight off your weariness.  He is going to gather you in His arms.  He is going to give you the rest you need!

Every human on earth can become weary.  It is not wrong to admit that we are weary and tired.  In fact, to not admit when we are tired is dangerous.  To live in an ongoing state of weariness and tiredness is dangerous to yourself and others around you.

There are many things that can cause us to become weary:

  • Grief  –  “I am weary with my crying, my throat is parched; my eyes fail while I wait for my God.” (Psalm 69:3 NASB)
  • Pain – When you are in physical or emotional pain you lose sleep and become weary.  “At night my bones are filled with pain, which gnaws at me relentlessly.” (Job 30:17 NLT)
  • Discouragement – We lack faith in God.  We don’t believe what He says.  We doubt and fear.  This is dangerous as it can be contagious when you share it with others.  “Finally, if any of you are afraid, you may go home.  We don’t want you to discourage the other soldiers.” (Deuteronomy 20:8 CEV)
  • Complaining – Have you ever been with people that complain.  If this complaining persists during a supper meal, by the end of the meal you are tired!  Complaining weighs you down and makes you tired!  Thankfulness uplifts.
  • God Testing Us – “Beloved do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you;”  (1 Peter 4:12 NASB)
  • Physically Overdoing It – Becoming burned out makes one so very weary.
  • Lack of Sleep – Sleep deprivation is the ultimate in weariness.
  • Working for God – By frantically doing everything we “see” that we think needs to be done but not listening to what God is actually asking us to do we just wear ourselves out.  Not everything we see that needs to be done is ours to do.
  • Bitterness & Unforgiveness – You stay awake reminiscing and remembering.  Your mouth gets tired of chewing.  The cells in your body get tired of being on edge about it all the time, and your brain begins making new thought paths where your thoughts automatically go to.  Your thoughts get stuck in those ruts, and you can’t sleep.  You get weary and tired because life becomes all about what happened to you. You get locked in a jail cell, and you are the one who hurts because of bitterness and unforgiveness.  It just makes you tired and eventually sick. It is a weight around your neck the enemy uses to try and drown you.  You think about it and think about it and think about it.  You talk about it and talk about it and talk about it.  You chew on it and chew on it and chew on it.  Someone hurt you or offended you or did you wrong and then you won’t let go of the bone.
  • Being Religious and Trying to Be Outwardly What You are Not Inwardly – You have not been transformed in an area of your life, and you are trying on your own to be good enough – oh so tiring!   
  • Being Anxious – “Anxiety in a man’s heart weighs it down, but a good word makes it glad.” (Proverbs 12:25 NASB)
  • Fear – If you constantly live in fear you are tired. Fear of the future.  Fear of not having enough provision.  Fear of what people think … fear!

The results of weariness are so dangerous to us physically, relationally and spiritually:

  • We have no energy to fight our battles
  • We are overwhelmed and ineffective
  • We make bad decisions and fast decisions
  • We become uncaring as we have no strength to care
  • The Accuser’s voice becomes strong and overwhelming

Every aspect of our lives and those around us suffer because we are weary. The enemy loves it when we are too proud to confess that we are tired because he gains a foothold into our effectiveness for God.

There is cure for weariness and God is here with the cure:

  • Recognize and admit we are weak.  We are sheep and God is our Shepherd.  It is His job to take care of us.  We need His strength and cannot do it on our own.
  • Confidently approach God and ask for His help.  He asks us to do this.  He said, “Come unto me all who are weary.”
  • Ask the Holy Spirit to shine His light into your heart – into every corner and to sweep your heart clean of any sin.  Sin hurts and takes away our joy.  Sin is a leach that attaches itself in our hearts and sucks the life out of us.  How sweet it is to have a clean conscience and pure heart.  The Bible says blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God.  We want to see God!
  • Ask God to fill you with His joy – The joy of the Lord is our strength. Don’t be surprised in some cases if when you first ask God to fill you with joy the reverse appears to happen. I recently asked God expectantly to fill me with joy.  The very next day I cried the majority of the day.  I said, “God I asked for joy!”  But you see God answered my prayer. He knew there were hurts and situations He had to heal and deal with in order for joy to arise.  So He did bring joy; but, first He did what was needed to heal me.  Joy did come in the morning. 
  • Be still and wait – You can’t hear God if you don’t be still and listen.  Shut out the noise and clatter.  “Yet those who wait for the Lord, will gain new strength; they will mount up with wings like eagles, they will run and not get tired, they will walk and not become weary.” (Isaiah 40:31 NASB)

God is here right now willing and wanting to draw near and help you.  Slow down … be still and come to Him.   Hear what He is saying:

“Come unto me all who are weary and I will give you rest.”  (Matthew 11:28 NASB)

Go to God – let Him hold you. Let Him fill you with strength.  Just be the little child He wants you to be and let Him hold you and rock you.  Fall asleep in His arms and rest this very night.  His yoke is easy and His burden light.  Enter into the rest of God.

May we be known as a people who know how to find their strength in the Lord and to be at rest.  A people that rests in God and accomplishes more than can ever be dreamed of or imagined by the power and strength of the Holy Spirit – nothing of our own.

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I Want You Back!

i-want-you-back-godEveryone has had situations in their life that have deeply wounded and hurt them. 

I am not talking about situations where someone hurt your feelings, and in two or three days you are over it.

The situations I am talking about are those moments in time when trauma happens in your life that causes you such emotional pain you don’t know how to breath. Sharp stabs of pain pierce your heart, and you don’t know how you will be able to survive the next moment let alone the next hour, day or years of life you have left on planet earth.  Your life will never be the same.  It seems like every cell in your body screams out, “No!”

The cause of those gut wrenching moments are different in everyone’s lives.  For some, it is the passing of a loved one.  For others it may be divorce, separation or abandonment.   Other times, it may be a sudden illness or accident that leaves a person’s life changed for ever.

In my life, I have lived time after time after time with the pain stabbing me because of rejection. 

Rejection happens when you love someone, and you want them in your life forever.  You care about them, you love them, and you want to forever be with that person to love them and care for them and live life with them. 

However, for some reason that person chooses to reject and spurn your love and walk away.  They are not interested in being with you.  They may even tell you how much they dislike you or hate you; they walk away and you are left with a heart that is stabbed with pain.

Usually a sermon, devotional or story on this topic would share advice on how to survive through the pain.  It is true that I can tell you the answer is going to God – He does carry us through every pain. 

However, what I want us to do is instead of looking at our own pain; I want us to think about how deep that pain is when it happens to another person.  I want us to focus on one person – the person who has been the most rejected in history.  There is one person who stands out as the most rejected ever!  That person is God.

God has lived every moment of every day since He created His children with millions and millions and millions of His children rejecting Him.  God’s heart has screamed in pain as continually His children reject Him.

In the book of Hosea, God was rejected by His children; the children of Israel.  God chose a prophet, Hosea, to re-enact the story of what the children of Israel were doing.  He wanted them to see in front of their own eyes the story of how He loved them and how they turned and walked away from Him.

Israel had forsaken God and played the harlot with other gods.  Israel murdered, stole, worshipped other gods — in fact, the Bible says the more Israel multiplied the more they sinned.

God had to punish Israel; He is holy and righteous.  A good dad must correct his children.  A good dad cannot allow his children to keep running out into the street in front of cars, because he sees that they will get hurt or killed.  He loves them too much to leave them to do whatever they want.

When people reject us, we don’t want to feel the pain so we often then choose to in turn reject the person who walked away from us.  We say, “They don’t want me so I will just put up a wall and not think about them again.  I will forget them and get on with my life.”  That is not what God wants.

Jesus asked us to live differently.  He said in the Kingdom of God life is different.  We are to turn the other cheek when someone hits us.  We are to love those who hate us. 

God is and always will be the same.  The Bible says He never changes.  His character is pure true love.  God in the Old Testament, in the book of Hosea, did punish His children; however, the story does not end there.  God then began to share His heart for His children.

First of all, He remembered.  He remembered the good times with His children.  He remembered how He loved them, cared for them, delivered them from Egypt, and led them.  God had blessed His children. 

“And she did not know that it was I who gave her the grain, the wine and the oil, and who lavished on her silver and gold, which they used for Baal.” (Hosea 2:8)

Then after remembering, in Chapter 11 of Hosea, it says that God yearned over His people.  The rejected heart of the Father had those piercing pains that would never leave as long as His children rejected Him.  Here is what God said . . .

“How can I give you up . . . How can I surrender you . . . My heart is turned over within Me and all My compassions are kindled.” (Hosea 11:8)

Doesn’t that sound like us when we love someone and they totally reject us or leave us?  If you have a child that has rejected you or anyone you deeply love reject you, the pain hits you and you cry out, “How can I give you up?  How can I surrender you?  How can I live day after day without you?  Please come home!”

God felt that pain for Israel when they rejected Him. Deep gut wrenching cries from a heart of love.  

But then, God made this loving call to Israel.  He told them if they would only return to Him … 

“Therefore, behold, I will allure her, bring her into the wilderness and speak kindly to her . . . and she will sing there as in the days of her youth, as in the day when she came up from the land of Egypt. 

‘It will come about in that day,’ declares the LORD , ‘That you will call Me Ishi (my husband) and will no longer call Me Baali (my master). ”  (Hosea 2:14-16)

God wanted and yearned for restored relationship!

“I will betroth you to Me forever; Yes, I will betroth you to Me in righteousness and in justice, in lovingkindness and in compassion, and I will betroth you to Me in faithfulness. Then you will know the LORD .”  (Hosea 2:19-20)

God promised Israel if she would return He would bless her. 

Just like the prodigal in the New Testament when he returned home to his Father, God doesn’t accuse us or punish us if we return, repent and turn to Him.  God opens His arms and runs to us as the Prodigal’s father did when he saw him afar off.  The father then threw a party to celebrate because his son was home – that is what God wants to do!  The Bible says even the angels rejoice when a child comes home.  

Have you rejected God?  Are you in one of the following three categories?

YOU HAVE NEVER HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD.  Has God called you to Him or is He calling you now as you read this;  but, you so far in life have rejected Him and walked away.  You have said, “No, I want nothing to do with God.”  Yet, everyday you worship other gods.  A god is what is our source of life – what is it that you rely on for fulfillment – that is a god.   Does your god really give you peace and fulfillment?  Can you trust him to give you eternal life when you die? 

YOU ARE A PRODIGAL – YOU ONCE HAD A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD BUT WALKED AWAY.  Did you at one time follow God, like Israel; but your love grew warm and then cold?  Did you walk away like the prodigal?   Did you reject God and no longer have a relationship with Him and traded His love and care for gods that you think bring you more fulfillment?   

YOU HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD; BUT IT IS LUKE WARM – HE IS NOT REALLY GOD OF ALL YOUR LIFE.  Are you in a lukewarm relationship with God?  Do you perhaps go to church now and then or maybe every week; however, when He calls you to prayer and to spend time with Him you are too busy?  Has He asked you to do things; but, you have not surrendered and said yes to follow Him?   Do you spend your days in pursuit of wealth, accomplishment, status, success, or whatever else it is that is most important for you to obtain during this life? Where does God fit?  Does God look at you and hurt – does pain rack His being because of His deep love for you but you have rejected Him?

3317397_sOne of the things I have asked God is that when I go to Heaven I want to sit on God’s lap and hear His heartbeat.

Recently, God showed me that He wanted to share some of His heartbeat with me now.  Amazingly, it was not all cuddles and hugs which is what I was wanting and expecting.  Instead, He allowed me to be intimate with Him, and He shared the part of His heart with me that feels such pain and rejection and cries for His children to come home.  The very pain we feel when we are rejected – He feels every moment. 

God allowed me to feel on a very low level through my life what He feels like.  The Bible says that God is love.  He is perfect love.  God showed me that a human being could not handle the pain He feels. 

Perfect love plus rejection is pain beyond what a human can imagine.  God told me all the rejection I have felt (all the stabbing pain) is just a small peak into what it is like to feeling His heart beat for His children that have walked away and rejected Him. 

He also asked me to call His children home to Him.  “Be a voice, Esther.  Please call my children home to Me.”

Perfect God Love + Rejection =

PAIN beyond what any human could imagine

Please hear your Heavenly Father’s cry, “Come home! I want my children home.  I love you – please come back to me!  How can I give you up?  I love you!  I want to lavish my love on you!  Turn around, repent and come back to me.”

My prayer for you …

“I pray that the Holy Spirit will continue to speak to you and call you to the Father long after you have finished reading this blog.  I pray that this very day you will turn and return to God.

I pray that the angels will rejoice in Heaven as children come home.  They rejoice as they know relationship restored is the Father’s heart.  They know that every child of God that returns to God and puts Him first in their life lessens the pain in God’s heart.

Oh how You love us God!  Oh what a heart You have … a heart full of pain because You have true perfect love for Your children and You yearn for them to come home and be in restored relationship with You.”

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